This past week I had a lot of moments to help me reflect and feel so grateful for all of the blessings that Heavenly Father and my family has provided. My weekend was full of different activities. I went to a reception of a friend from Jerusalem and then was able to see a good amount of Jerusalem people that night. It made me so happy to just sit and see us all together again! I grew so much there but I also realize that I have grown so much- it has been almost 3 years since I went to Jerusalem. I miss it so much and pray that one day I will be able to go back. After the reception, Amy and I hiked the Y with some guys from the ward that we did not know too well but invited them anyways. We get to the top and sit in the night looking out over Provo city lights and it was beautiful. It was right, I thought of all the times that I have spent here; the pee your pants laughing moments and the ones that I drove somewhere just to cry and stay there until I knew everyone else would be asleep. I know this is not my future but it is apart of my present. Provo is where I need to be now.
Saturday was spent at waterpolo practice then Hula dancing. I come home exhausted - I haven't been to the temple in a few weeks for myself. Temple or a nap? Both are needed. A sigh- I jump in the shower and start getting ready to go to the temple. Driving there I just talk to Heavenly Father and tell Him what is going on in my life, I sincerely ask Him to help me stay awake because I am so tired. I change from outside clothes into my temple whites and feel a quiet beauty. I look around and see it in everyone, i try to walk as quietly as possible to learn how to walk like an angel does, find a smile filled with a peaceful faith. My session starts and it is video I have never seen before and it was perfect to keep me awake, my heart swells as the truths I already know are reaffirmed. I understand that I need to keep continuing down the path that I am on until He gives me further direction. I exit the temple at the perfect time, when the sun is setting. An orange and red sky fading into blue with pink clouds.
Sunday comes, church passes- I struggled staying focused. I drive the Alpine Loop with Mikaela, Alisa, and Mohonri. I love seeing the beauty all around me- the simple trees to the huge mountains are truly beautiful in their own way. That night check my messages and see an reply email from my convert. I struggle to hide the tears of gratitude that I was allowed to serve. It has been the best single decision I have made yet in my life. I think of all the people that I taught but in turn learned so much more from. Its hard not living with RMs; not because these girls aren't as spiritual or devoted or that I am better in any way, they just don't understand. They don't understand the excitement that comes when I hear from my converts or members, they don't get the love I have for these people. Sunday night I went over to a girls apartment that I had met that day and we are watching a disney movie- she starts opening up and talks about how she just needs to work on herself and so she has decided to serve a mission. Oh my, did I get super excited for her! She is nervous and is starting her papers now, I am so grateful that I could give her my little advise that I have: just be you, try your best and let the Lord handle the rest because He can! There are only two sister RMs in the ward and I felt so grateful that Heavenly Father helped me find a new friend that I already love so much and that I can be of service to.
Nothing happens by accident; but all is for my good and to be used for His service. Jerusalem instilled the desire to serve a mission; the mission has prepped me to help so many people now even in Mormon central; the temple continues to give me the added strength to keep me moving forward; all of my sports has directed me into my major that I love. God is coincidence; and a perfect planner.
Saturday was spent at waterpolo practice then Hula dancing. I come home exhausted - I haven't been to the temple in a few weeks for myself. Temple or a nap? Both are needed. A sigh- I jump in the shower and start getting ready to go to the temple. Driving there I just talk to Heavenly Father and tell Him what is going on in my life, I sincerely ask Him to help me stay awake because I am so tired. I change from outside clothes into my temple whites and feel a quiet beauty. I look around and see it in everyone, i try to walk as quietly as possible to learn how to walk like an angel does, find a smile filled with a peaceful faith. My session starts and it is video I have never seen before and it was perfect to keep me awake, my heart swells as the truths I already know are reaffirmed. I understand that I need to keep continuing down the path that I am on until He gives me further direction. I exit the temple at the perfect time, when the sun is setting. An orange and red sky fading into blue with pink clouds.
Sunday comes, church passes- I struggled staying focused. I drive the Alpine Loop with Mikaela, Alisa, and Mohonri. I love seeing the beauty all around me- the simple trees to the huge mountains are truly beautiful in their own way. That night check my messages and see an reply email from my convert. I struggle to hide the tears of gratitude that I was allowed to serve. It has been the best single decision I have made yet in my life. I think of all the people that I taught but in turn learned so much more from. Its hard not living with RMs; not because these girls aren't as spiritual or devoted or that I am better in any way, they just don't understand. They don't understand the excitement that comes when I hear from my converts or members, they don't get the love I have for these people. Sunday night I went over to a girls apartment that I had met that day and we are watching a disney movie- she starts opening up and talks about how she just needs to work on herself and so she has decided to serve a mission. Oh my, did I get super excited for her! She is nervous and is starting her papers now, I am so grateful that I could give her my little advise that I have: just be you, try your best and let the Lord handle the rest because He can! There are only two sister RMs in the ward and I felt so grateful that Heavenly Father helped me find a new friend that I already love so much and that I can be of service to.
Nothing happens by accident; but all is for my good and to be used for His service. Jerusalem instilled the desire to serve a mission; the mission has prepped me to help so many people now even in Mormon central; the temple continues to give me the added strength to keep me moving forward; all of my sports has directed me into my major that I love. God is coincidence; and a perfect planner.