So Halloween was this last week... definitely not my favorite holiday, but I am glad it's over!
School is going by so fast and it is making me nervous about being a big kid and graduated from college. I register this week for classes. I had an interview for a job (that I didn't even apply for but my teacher recommended me) this last week.
There just seems to be so much going on and too many options. I have been trying to focus on what my direction should be.
Life is good. Life is great! It's so different lately and it's weird being in Rexburg. I think part of it is that I have changed and then part of it is that Rexburg is different from before.
Dating is terrible... no promising prospects (sorry to Katie who wanted me married before she leaves on her mission haha).
I've just been struggling with my calling. I've been doing everything required but a lot of groups have some people that consistently don't come to FHE and they'll do things that they think those people would like to do or push the time to be later but they still don't come. I'm at a loss. Sometimes free-agency is terrible and you wish you could just force everyone to come! Haha but it's been different. As a missionary, you have a nametag on. People expect you to tell them churchy things and what they should and shouldn't be doing. Once you come home, they don't look at you the same. I can't just prance into an apartment and preach to them about how FHE is a commandment and they need to be going. I've had to think creatively about what I can do to help these people as part of my calling. I know the Lord will bless me with small ways I can help.
Anyway, this is so jumbled, but it goes along with how things are. My life is kind of all over the place even though it's going great!
I've just been grateful that inbetween all of my jumbled things going on that the Lord somehow shows me in the smallest ways how much I am loved. It is sometimes really small, but just a little reminder is all that is needed.
This last week, my roommate wrote me a nice note saying she looked up to me! It was just a nice reminder that the Lord is happy with what I'm doing and I couldn't tell you anything about the future, but I'm going to keep chugging along until I can solve the jumbled puzzle.