As we all know life as a family has been a little hectic of late. It amazes though that even with all the craziness we can still see miracles. I have been thinking about the Plan of Salvation and how as a family we are experiencing two parts of it at the same time. Little George joined our family this week and we are all so excited and happy to have him (we all are now counting down till Thanksgiving so we can really meet our nephew!); then there is Grandpa, who is continuing to hold on for just a little bit longer. Not sure if this is doctrine, Heavenly Father is very concerned about how we come into this world and how we end it; He has given us commandments about not killing and the Law of Chastity to help send His little spirit children into a stable environment. I have been trying to go to the temple more often and every time I do; I just feel peace. I don't know all the answers to my questions but I feel a calm reassurance that one day I will know all the answers. Going off of last week a little bit of being analytical of myself and always trying to analyze why I do what I do. I have this picture of who I want to be, characteristics that I wish I had, and then try and figure out why I am not like that. Most of the time I think it is fear. When there is fear there cannot be faith at the same time. There was a song that I heard on my mission that is by Mercy River (I think that is the LDS band) but the chorus goes like this:Has anybody told you, you're beautiful?
'Cuz everything about you is incredible.
You should have seen me smile the day that I made you beautiful for me.
We were driving in our Relief Society's car and I heard this song and just cried. I love the message, because we are so incredibly beautiful to our Master! I wonder how big His smile was when all of us were born. As He handed us over to our earthly parents and promised that everything would be okay if we would only trust Him and follow His plan. Something the song doesn't talk about, but, I know is true is- how big is His smile when we have accomplished what He has designed for us and we come back home to Him. He must be so proud of us and how we overcame different trials and allowed our faith in Him to overpower our fear. We have George who just came to this earth and is starting his journey, and Grandpa whose work here is done and it is time for him to go home. Then there is us sometimes running or skipping down the path, and other times crawling and stumbling down it. There will always be times of both. What I am constantly learning is that my part is to just try my best, live without all the fears of "what if" and to just see His plan unfold before me. I am learning to let go of the fear of "what if, His plan is not what I wanted." Silly me, that has happened so many times before and it is so much better! He will not give me something I do not want, or something that will not make me happier in the end.